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Name: Becca
Birthday: 4/22/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: Dance, soccer, and theatre. I like to sing too but that's mostly a closet thing. Ha ha yea...people hearing me sing is kind of a no no unless I have to I'm just a tad self concious about that.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message me
AIM:  BeccaCow205
Member Since:
6/10/2004
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| i've lost all drive and its horrible. i pretty much just dont care about school anymore. i do it because at this point in life i'm supposed to do it and thats what everyone tells me i'm supposed to do.
i hate this part of life. is it over yet?
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| just dont know what to do anymore.
i feel like a crazy person.
there were a few lies thrown out that i cannot take back at all. worst
is that there was partial truth to a few of them.
i dont like
lying i can honestly say that they always just fall out of my mouth and
then its too late to take them back. whats said is said.
ya know
what sucks. having some knowledge that things will never be the same
and that things will never be good. but having so much love, denial and
hope in your heart that you have a false belief that things will be
good again even great and then little things fall like raindrops around
you and when you notice them it makes you cry. yeah thats me at this
moment.
something that makes the whole situation feel worse. is
not having anyone to turn to. i love you all dearly but it is the most
dreadful feeling knowing that some of your closest friends wont care,
others will think youre stupid, others cant believe you still feel the
way you do, others are sick of hearing about it, the list goes on. so
when i find myself with nights like this one where there is no where to
turn, i cant get the hug i crave/want/need and my sanctuary (read: bed
blankets and pillows) doesn't feel anything like a sanctuary but like a
cold cript. i have nothing left to do but to be an insomniac. which
drives me insane because it means watching bad television, being
extremely tired, still smelling like work, crying, cold and listening
to my dad snore.
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| It's raining :) I love when it rains :)
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| hello xanga, Its been far too long lol. so as far as I've noticed there are maybe 5 of us who still use it. those five consisting of Deve, Senia, Rachel, Katie K and myself. So congrats to us for being faithful xangans lol. What's new with me...I have moved jobs no longer a manager at Papa John's thank God! I am now an employee at Ice Cream Renaissance in downtown Vancouver and i pretty much love it. I break dishes every now and again but I'm getting good at scooping, topping, seating, busing, taking orders pretty much everything. It's fun although at times I do feel kind of stupid being a college junior and still waiting tables and whatnot but then I try to remind myself how many people aren't working through school, as well as how many people are working but don't like they're jobs. Oh! Back in April I got into a car accident not exciting I know but it was a fender bender and my airbag deployed...trust me you never want that to happen it's really painful.. anyways after the accident the insurance company considered my car totaled i guess the cost to replace the airbag alone is more than my car is worth. The good news is that I have finally found a car! I now get to drive around a 2000 Ford Focus its silver with gray cloth interior and I kinda really really really like it so thats good. Thats about it for now. | | |
| I feel like I'm floating. Nothing in particular is really going on. Nothing interesting. Nothing noteable really.
Just kinda waiting for something to happen. Just getting through what I can. And being perfectly ok with whatever gets done. And being ok with whatever doesn't get done. Which is weird cause usually when things don't get done it drives me nuts.
So I'm floating...just kinda waiting....
I want to go swimming. And lay out in the sun though. Silly Washington rain.
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